I've been feeling a lot lately that God couldn't possibly love me. The words coming out of my mouth (& therefore my heart) have been awful, I've had anger in my heart (which often comes out as impatience with Michael), & my affections toward God have been cold & distant. Nothing whatsoever to love, & plenty to hate. It's kind of a hopeless feeling, believing that God doesn't love you. All of a sudden, it came to me this morning that there has never been anything worth loving in me, & yet God always has & chose to save me. Not because of who I am or what I've done, but because of who He is & what His Son has done. I didn't do anything to earn God's love, but He freely bestowed it upon me while I was His enemy. What makes me think that I can do anything to earn His love now that I'm His child? Or lose it?
God shows His love for us in that while we were still sinners, Christ died for us. Since, therefore, we have now been justified by His blood, much more shall we be saved by Him from the wrath of God. For if while we were enemies we were reconciled to God by the death of His Son, much more, now that we are reconciled, shall we be saved by His life. ~Romans 5:8-10
