Anyone who knows me - or has read this blog for any amount of time - knows that I'm a crier. Happy, sad, angry, hurt . . . pretty much, you name it, I cry. But, there's always a reason. I'm not an irrational crier. Well, I wasn't, anyways. Until last night.
I'm reading a truly fabulous book, Natural Hospital Birth, which is helping me prepare for exactly that. I want a homebirth with a midwife, but that's illegal in our state . . . which is another post. ;-) So, back to the book. I was reading last night about the stages of labor, & when talking about early labor, she said that was a good time for husband & wife to create memories of their last moments alone together. Now, it's not as though the reality that we won't be alone any longer hasn't occurred to me already, but Michael & I enjoy an awful lot of time alone together. Time that I have always been very jealous to preserve. Even though I yearn for this child with all of my being, all of a sudden, I felt a little panic, & I came into the room with worry etched all over my face. When I explained this sentence to him, I teared up a little . . . & he laughed. I lost it! Seriously, I started to sob! I walked away with my face in my hands, & when he asked me where I went, I said in that really high voice (think chipmunk), "In the bathroom." He asked me to come back, & I wept on his shoulder. I'm sure he had no idea what was going on. The whole time that I'm weeping, there is this rational part of me saying this was crazy, but I just couldn't stop crying! Later, once I was able to calm down, I burst out laughing over my weirdness. Poor Michael, I think he's got a long road ahead of him! ;-)
If that is your choice, then awesome! But don't let any book scare you out of having an epidural. I had them with both my kids and they were not affected. Both were very alert after birth. I have friends who went natural and loved it. To each his own.
ReplyDeleteI would never make such an important decision based on one book. I've researched natural birth for a couple of years now & have been convinced that the benefits of natural birth far outweigh the risks of unnecessary interventions, along with the fact that birth pain is pain with a purpose. But, that was actually not the point of this post. I only wanted to relay a funny story of hormones run amok. The book's only role was in explaining the catalyst for my crazy tears.
ReplyDeleteYou'll have moments alone together...after your little one has left your nest. The tears that come then will be for another reason. :)
ReplyDeleteOh, my! Those hormones will continue after the baby is born, too... Roll, tide, roll (excuse the pun). Love you!
ReplyDeleteThat's what Michael said, Leslie. I told him we'd better have alone time earlier than 18+ years from now! ;-) I know he'll be good about planning date nights & such. He's a great husband!
ReplyDeleteAnd THAT'S what Beth said, Mama! Especially right after little M&M is born. Love your pun! Definitely ROLL TIDE! Love you, too!